God, three years later and I can't believe I've been led to rant on this site I just found. When I first met you I didn't expect any of this to happen at all. We were so caught up in each other, I still till this day don't know what made you like me. A complete stranger. That's what we were…or still are. I have no idea who you are anymore. I've never seen your face, I've never heard your voice , I've only ever read your messages to me and I fell in love with you. I don't know what spell you put on me but I'm wrapped around your finger.
We went from talking every single day to me not hearing a word in three months. Who the fuck do you think you are? How dare you make me fall so hard for you. You fucked my head up so bad I can't even look at another guy without thinking or comparing them to you. I can't do anything with wondering about you and where you are. I didn't want to fall in love, I told you and yet o did anyway. You told me I could trust you, you made me feel safe. And now you've left me all alone. All by my damn self.
For three years I kept us a secret from my family and friends because YOU told me I couldn't say anything. I've had to keep everything bottled up and it's driving me crazy. I'm so in love with you it makes me sick! Fuck, sometimes I wish I could just hate you. I wonder what would have happened if we never met, but then I stop myself because you were the greatest thing that ever happened to me. The time we did spend together was so fucking perfect. Sometimes I make up little scenarios of where you are or who you're with…God, you better not be married.
You told me that I just had to wait until this Friday and we could be together. I wait three years for this day to come, for this birthday to come and you leave right before? Without a word? You coward. You did this to me.
I hope you're alive. I hope you're safe and happy. I hope you had a reason for breaking my heart. Because, as much as I want to hate you I'll never love anyone like I love you.