So, originally, I didn't want to do this, but talking to others hasn't seemed to work, so I thought that I should just put all of my thoughts into one rant, with the entire truth wrapped into it. Maybe that will make me feel better.
I've got a crush on a friend (let's call her friend A).
That's not inherently the problem though. The problem is that the friend I've got the crush on is currently about to start dating someone that I helped set her up with (let's call him friend B).
See the dilemma?
So about 2 months ago, I was confronted by friend B, who was bummed out that his crush (friend A) was currently dating someone else completely out of the equation. He came to me venting about how he felt, and asking for guidance. Like any other friend, I told him that if friend A and the ex broke up, I would help get them together (them being B and A).
So A breaks up with former boyfriend, feels sad. I swoop in and comfort her, get her number, make sure she's ok, all that jazz. While I'm comforting her, I put in some good words for friend B, even telling her about her crush. She's surprised, but she's willing to give him a chance. We don't stop talking after that, though. Every day she texts me, or I text her, and we talk about the randomest things or just play 20 questions. It wasn't until a week and a half ago I started realizing that I had a crush on her.
I dont want help with trying to break B and A up. I'm not that type of person, and I dont want to be. I just want to deal with the pain without going to extreme measures. Knowing that this is my fault, I know I gotta take responsibility for what I caused myself. But I just want the pain to go away faster.