My life isn't as bad as it could be, but being the needy little bitch I am, I feel the need to rant anyways. I'm going to start with crushes because its the most childish thing on this list of shit and I need to get this out. I typically bounce from one boy to another, and each of my crushes range for about a month. But this one particular crush lasted for two fucking years and it makes me feel so weak and disgusting because i'm so helpless and i try so hard to impress this guy. He constantly gets me into trouble, from hacking into my email account and stealing my phone. I've been friends with him for 6 years and I quickly gained feelings for him about 4 years into the friendship. He's a big nerd, really good at algebra, and he's not very athletic. So basically exactly my "type". He's funny, attractive, kinda caring, at least he was last year but I'll explain that later, and he constantly challenges me. When I first discovered my feelings for him, I was devastated. I didn't want to ruin our friendship, as cliche as it sounds, and I tried to deny it. Eventually I couldn't and I attempted to flirt with him. I honestly thought it was working, he went out of his way to hang out with me, and I felt elated. But then the next year, he just disappeared. He never talked to me, always pushed me away. I tried contacting him via social media but he always sent me messages saying "Go away" or he wouldn't answer at all. I was so confused, we were always talking during the summer on hangouts and suddenly he shut me out. Sadly, I ended up not having classes with him, so I never got to see him. I'm sad and angry and sad again. I'm always the one trying to make the move and try to hang out with him lately, and I think I'm just going to give off. He's better off without me, and he's made that pretty damn clear.