I hate how every time i like someone it always has to be an unrequited love. Last year I finally got a boyfriend but i felt as if he was only going out with me because he didnt want to hurt my feelings nut little did he know that he made me feel like everything was wrong with me so i had to let him go. And not to mention i put 100% of my effort into our relationship but no matter how much i tried it was as if our relationship was hanging on my a single thread and it was either him or me who would do the honors of cutting that single thread. in the end it was me. After our break up i realized any things. i realized that he was a baby and i read our text messages and i found that most of them were about him and his problems and then when i would talk about my problems he would basically somehow bring them back to his problems and basically say how my problems arent as serious as his. after a few months or weeks he got with someone and i wasnt happy and i cried because at that moment when i saw them together i remembered the feeling of loss. it felt as if all the had work and dedication i put in our relationship was all draining and it somehow created a deep void of emptiness within my heart. of course they didnt last very only because she was using him to make her ex boyfriend jealous and now shes back with her ex but the thing when my ex and the girl were together i was developing old feelings i had for the girls ex boyfriend because in the past i would like him but the thing is he liked the girl and they went out and then i had no choice but to give up since it was never meant to be. wait a second i think i may know what it takes to love someone… like i think i realize it now after spilling my drama. so the whole dedication and determination and hard work are what a relationship basically needs but in the moment when youre finally realizing you have feelings for someone and something goes wrong, if you really liked that person you would do anything to work through that problem. like for example, you like someone but you feel like you two live in two worlds apart the question you'd have to answer is "how do i make two worlds become one?" That's honestly what i've been going through because after my ex i really felt the need to fill my empty void. and i have taken an interest into someone but the thing is i feel like our worlds are galaxies apart. i dont know i know its not good to stress too much about this but my void is real to me and it's hungry for love again. i dont want to love but i just have this feeling if wanting someone and making our love last for eternity. but i know there are zero chances of any of that for me… ugh i think the only reason i have these feelings are because im young and my hormones are just going everywhere. but whatever. in my mind i know im not in any way in good shape for a relationship yet.