There's this person I've had hella feelings for, for a while now. But whenever I tell them that I like them, they like another. And each time my heart breaks even more. I gotta stop making a fool of myself in front of this person. She's so beautiful and kind and funny and adorable and perfect. She's everything I've ever wanted, but in her eyes, I'm not what she wants. And I understand why. It's because I'm ugly, I'm a dork, I'm fat, I'm petty, I'm not even funny, I don't look as good as the people she likes. I try so hard to be there for her but when I talk to her she seems so happy with another and talks about them and it hurts a lot. I just wish she knew how much I love her. I really do love her, so much. I wish I didn't though, because I wouldn't be hurting as much.
The worst part is, it seems like she enjoys my pain. Then it seems as though she gets mad at me for expressing my feelings, especially for her. I'm so sorry babe.
"K." No longer will I ever enjoy seeing that word. It makes me hate my middle name.