I’m going to be vague, mostly because it’d be way too much for me to type even if I wanted to and it’s 2:36am and I should be going to sleep soon. I just hate that shitty feeling you get when you hear things that were said about you (not pleasant things either) from other people and not from that person themselves that said those things and specifically told these people not to tell me and it’s just one big stupid unnecessary drama. Clearly she just wanted to vent about how I can’t be trusted because I don’t tell her what she wants to hear. Because in reality, this friend of mine has turned into some brat that says that they can’t have female friends because they’re so hard to get along with but really, it’s probably because they don’t kiss her ass or tell her what she wants to hear and just use her for her damn money. Despite me graduating high school years ago, I still feel like I’m in it because of how some people that I want to keep in my life decide to still act like damn teenagers. I’m not perfect either but I really do try not to be dramatic or petty with my close friends. I just thought that my childhood friend actually saw me as a friend, someone more trustworthy and the things I heard, well… I guess I should have expected it even if I didn’t want to. She hasn’t really been the girl I thought I knew for a very long time. It just saddens me. Everyone is changing around me, either for the better or worse and it just sucks when you feel like the friend you thought you had has actually become something toxic in your life. I don’t want to just let her go though, I’ve known her for so long, but I think it’s best for me to just keep my distance for now. It’s all I can do to stay sane. Don’t really care if this made sense. It was more venting for me.