• EC

    You sound like me.
    Life gets better, kid. It really does. You’re not a waste of space, and I really, really recommend you talk to your school counselor. It feel so good to ask for help, and there are so many people who care about you, and you just have to reach out. I felt the exact same way when I was your age. I would fantasize about dying and waiting until I was a teenager to do it. Instead of reaching out for other people, though, I slipped into an eating disorder to manage my stress. Now I’m recovering from that after a few years of even more suffering, but I don’t want to die anymore. It’s weird. I used to write in my diary every single day about now much I wanted to kill myself, but now I don’t want to anymore. I swear it gets better. You need help, and there are so many people who would be willing to help if they knew you were hurting. The world may need you, kid. Don’t leave so soon.