Getting over a cold and can't stand my mom lately. Still not sure where my cold came from. I think that since spicy things set off your sinuses due to their cleansing qualities, the jalapeno I had on Sunday did it. that was scary. both rows of gums burned and tingled, and it just wouldn't go away. mucus appeared late at night, and then on monday i had a sore throat. anyways, cant stand people lately. ive become so annoyedd yet buried it all, so now, i dont feel much of anything at all. i sometimes feel enraged, but thats it. my dreams are frustrating and in them i am usually assaulting my friends. i sometimes have unwanted images in my head that bring me physical pain to think about, that i cant get away. i want to cry, but im exhausted. i have breathing problems. my mom raises her voice and it hurts bc my hearing is very sensitive. the world is very loud and i can hardly stand people. i want to die. life is too boring yet overwhelming. i stopped feeling emotions bc its not worth feeling them.