I never understood why people say their heart breaks when they fight with someone they love. But I now know that there's this weird, aching feeling that's RIGHT where my heart is, where it should be. And I know that the heart is only a muscle that pumps blood through our veins and keeps us alive but… can it feel? Can my heart feel what I feel? The aching that I endure? It feels like I'm suffocating with heaving lungs, and there's something at the bottom of my throat tickling the top of my heart. My ears are hot and red and I want to disappear. I've never wanted to be nowhere more than right now. Everything I have ever worked for suddenly disappeared, as the maker should as well. "You are what you work for".
Oblivion has never seemed so welcoming. The end so near. The darkness so light. The rightness to fear.