Honestly I just feel like I'm toxic, I make all my friendships toxic. All my friends are meaner or worse people because of me. And like I'm kind of a rude person but I'm just outspoken and dramatic. I've been moody lately and I always overreact. People have told me that I feed off drama and I guess I kind of do. I say I hate drama but deep down I know I would be bored without it. I just bring drama wherever I go. And i don't know how to stop. My friends tend to copy me and I think my toxicity it spreading, I don't know how to change. And I don't know how to hide my distaste, when I'm mad or annoyed I show it, I complain all the time and I feel like I'm turning into a negative person. Also I have a problem with trash talking and I'm very impulsive. I don't think before I talk, I'm slightly rude, and I act like I'm better than people. Someone help me I want to change, but I don't know how. I've been a bully before and I think I'm slipping back. In conclusion I'm just a toxic person to be around and I need to change I just don't know how.