i am a 16 year old girl born and raised in the city and recently my family moved to tennessee. on a mountain. in the middle of nowhere. i used to have so many friends and i was so happy but then i developed panic disorder and had to leave school which basically lead to have no friends and being depressed. i thought moving to tennessee would be a new start since i got on anxiety medication and felt a little better, but of course it was only worse. although my anxiety has gotten better my depression has spiruled out of control and i feel like i can't leave the house or even my room. i try telling my mother about how depressed i am but she always turns it around on me and says it's my fault that i'm depressed and it's my fault i don't have friends. what kind of mother says that??? my doctor told me to see a therapist but my mother never even tried to get one for me. there's so much i want to do with my life but i can't do it living in this trash town, i can't do it with this depression either. everyday i ask myself, "why are you still alive? what are you living for?". imagine having these horrible thoughts and having to stay cooped up in your room all the time and have nothing to do to stop it…. thank you for reading if you even made it through without getting bored.